this life

all my life i've been lied to
but you can never picture me cryin
havin visions in my sleep
where my friends picture me dyin
im cuttin my wrist cuz im gettin curious
somebody help me
im loosin control
damn this shit is gettin serious
im tryin to live life tha best way i know how
tryin not to get caught up
just like my father my only brother got shot up
when i die i know im not promissed to rest in peace bustin hell wide open
wonderin why heaven didnt accept me
until my time death walks behind me
fuk this world cuz dont nobody care bout me
fuk this life and im takin that to the grave wit me
the same people that say they love you wouldnt give a fuk if u lived or died
a lifetime of tears but only a few i've cried
so many hearts that arent sincere
so when my time comes
dont even shed a tear
after years of searching i finally understand who i live for
so dont cry for me because im not begging for happiness anymore


i posted dis already but i havent been on in awhile and it got earsed so imma post it again until i get time to post new shyt. but keep ya heads up to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!