Originally Posted by
Jukon
the power went out tonight
I couldn't see your absence.
your perfume dissipated
into the air. oxygen was heavy.
weighed down,
I'm afraid now.
Power went out. What a cool way to intro this. Lights out, don't notice she's not there. Get this symbolism of light being gone, her light, and you don't even notice. Not noticing, you notice the not noticing and begin to feel that heavy weight. Something of a realization, and not the kind you like having.
that maybe I should let you go
stop hanging on to
your last thread.
I'll unravel
under your bed.
like a hand me down sweat shirt
only kept for sentimental value.
which means
you never really wanted this.
it just landed in your lap,
and as you stood
I would fall away.
Perhaps you love her but she doesn't love you back, or perhaps you just don't love her; or are now realizing you don't actually love her as much as you hold on. The comfort of having her there, the comfort of her being there, the familiarity of it. But, when you don't notice that she's gone, you feel your not noticing was a sort of acceptance that bothered you. You never really loved her so much as you loved the idea of her being there. This odd relationship can't go both ways, and it needs to be let go no matter if it's painful.