A Disciple's Thread

[A Disciple]

@kill _spree who’s Zunto?

But had a good laugh tonight… it was cool to laugh like that though again

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And we all got the “joke” you know

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Did get a little nervous… strange person in my neighborhood but they was walking from visitors but almost popped off at us it felt. For a second I was like hell no not again

[A Disciple]

Yeah I was really toe to toe with him dazed and saw him at the bottom once… I saw a meme that reminded me of that and nah I’m mad but I’m not gonna disrespect him or wish unhappiness… he kept it mostly real but I feel he could’ve been honest and protected me more

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I wanted it so bad… he was my peace and comfort and ok I can sleep tonight and not babysit

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And these possessions I’m weak to… they used to drive me home when I got lost and I don’t know when or why they started to go against me

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I believe in an after so that makes some of it ok

[A Disciple]

I believe in an after so that makes some of it ok… I was fine, happy, minding my own busiess why they had to lure and hurt me in myrtle beach… how they even know when I didn’t even remember

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My life not gonna be about some socio bitch

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�� why I started doing yay again? “Cause I just died on him (dead roses)

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I did stop I just don’t think he realized

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Or noticed a

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My nephew marines now… the one that was 5 when my mental illnsss took a turn for never being normal ever again

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Yo secrets are HORRIBLE

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Bet you it was in July… that’s when I got sick again

[A Disciple]

Bruised v3

Drowning in cocaine
Until I go completely insane
It’s not that I can’t take the pain
It’s I put it all on that white rain
God he’s not here yet…
No not him either
They told me they’d show me why
A’ight lick… yeah right
And baby idgaf about you either

No one covering me again
I assume cause the lies they just spend
You know the ones that just pretend…
All alone again…
I never was easy, so easy to break before
But this shit hit to the core and I’m str8?dead feel like I just hit the floor
She told me I was going to die a cold and lonely death
If only she didn’t realize it is to his last breath
However, I’m starting to believe her
I didn’t know or owe the bitch nothing
And like 3x only seen her
So what you want me clean or?
I’m sure her baby dad fine
The curse not on him either
It’s on me… a complete stranger I be
But she blame me

And when you give I’m so easy to take
But what we had was nothing just fake?
Everyone played me - I was walking dead
And you? You traded me in for a $2 trick instead
But nah I never thought of life or people or souls or anything about it a game
Fucking with strangers in the dark
And from that point I was never the same
Up against an invincible enemy
But that ain’t a part or me
What was it for? Love?
Lessons repeating
Days go by
Throwing up
Everyone blame coke
Nah I blame their joke
And put it on the pre nup
Word… that’s what’s up
(Smiff n Wesson)

“Standing on the bridge waiting but nobody there” (Avril leveign)
Year after year…
Oh I get it… cool but not fair

Just checked his location… he playing games
Rocking but knowing regardless I’m
taking names
Yeah how you gonna be free
Forgiveness is the bitch in me
And I’m sure I’m in trouble for that too no kids? Yo for real…. Everything you ever wanted in life you never got too!

Ninth circle… I’m blasphemy… but French he don’t understand a thot and how she come to be…
Yo frenc… He don’t understand me

[A Disciple]

There’s nobody here for me

[A Disciple]

I pulled he sheets off last night again

[A Disciple]

I can’t respect anybody that would fuck with a mentally I
Ills person head for fun or entertainment

[A Disciple]

Everything I love


Set…
I lost me when I lost you
But I found myself again too
I would’ve sould to get you right (shit I tried)
But there isn’t anything they can offer me now worth the fight
(Dead up they lied)
That’s why I never had babies?
Cause yo I could’ve sworn…
And oh that body style on that Mercedes…
They leasing now to own?
Me?
They drilling now to dusk not dawn
Just no more nightmares God please
Cause when I’m down I’m gone
And Allah… we are friends not enemies
So show mercy on me please
And I don’t wanna roll with bitches I can’t stand
Just like I wouldn’t step to nickels I know I can’t land
(It wasn’t me)

I’m tired Lord… I’m tired of babysitting I want to sleep tonight
I’m tired of being played feeling so low and alone… when it’s them that did wrong and it’s not right
Now they assume why I don’t wanna fight
CAUSE IDGAF just wasting time in this life
Now I know… nickel I might a would’ve been his wife
But I can’t fuck with paths chosen…
And he treating me trife
Cool… shell shocked still frozen
A thot is what it’s grown
And if I didn’t hit you up you never would’ve known
Fuck you I put it on my life
I’m stuck between the two, focus or un do
Only this time I’m grown

I didn’t brag
Not much of war stories
Just airing shit out so the dreams won’t be so gory
And I can speak in tongues too
Nickel you don’t have a clue
When you’re strapped to the wall
Dont ever forget who jumped in to save you
Yeah I saw him I saw it all
He said you fucked him over too
But I’ll still undo
And that’s what’s cruel
A good heart you play for a fool
But bitch I’m not just some tool
He traded me too?
Cool!!!
I don’t even wanna rule
Cuz to way and entity too soon
So that’s what’s up…
What you trying to tell me?
He a goon?
How he not know everything we built they just trying to ruin

(Let Ems verse play)
Nah… just coke

[A Disciple]

I look stupid… right? Thought it was love again but realized I’m never gonna get it right and don’t even care to… I’m not going to let him play me… he put me second to pussy

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I hope it’s the worst vv he ever had too

[Lenox]

You’re a grown ass man bro

[Soule]

She's a female

[A Disciple]

End of message

[Soule]

Everything is moved to your thread.

[A Disciple]

Regarding that brown past though… I realize I never grew up but I never had any kids to keep me in check either

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Sad as fuck… he played me and traded me for an upgrade… you don’t have to make me feel and look so ugly to do that

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He don’t care how I feel… I can’t forget that

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Just alone… used to being alone and I hate it… I ran back… pushed my way thru and now I know… I don’t know how I feel now

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Now I know… I guess that’s all I can say

[Soule]

We care about you.
@Lenox wants your Instagram and @Fresh wants your number.